Thursday, October 28, 2004
been awhile since i blogged.. since its just a few days before the os..
i guess i should leave a last mark before i got no time to blog..
here's part of a song by ataris..its quite nice.
bad case of broken heart.
I'm staring at your picture
and dreaming that I could hold your hand.
we'd walk down to the ocean
and I would write your name in the sand.
they say sometimes you need some time apart
but I've got a bad case of broken heart.
and you're the only one who's got the cure.
and I can't live another day without seeing you smile.
2000 miles between us
and I guess that I'm the one to blame.
relationships and heartaches,
these two things are one and the same.
anyway.. things been really hectic and shit.. still feeling screwed..
half my mind wants to get it over with.. half my mind things i need to concentrate more..
its all crap. oh well. guess i should go now..
hope you're reading this.. haha...
this is po.
Posted at 08:39 pm by pozac
pozac
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
I HATE MYSELF
hey there. haven't been bloggin for quite awhile.. its kinda farked. feelin so screwed up and freakin disappointed by my results..
its all crap..
who wants to work with me during the first 3 months?? i need a working partner,
COS I ALREADY FARKIN KNOW DEEP INSIDE I CANT GET ANYWHERE!!
argh damn..
this all sucks.. i hate myself.. i hate myself.. i hate myself.. i hate myself.. i hate myself.. i hate myself.. i hate myself.. i hate myself..
this is real bullshit.. damn michael see.. damn everybody including and especially me..
gotta run. bye.
Posted at 09:22 pm by pozac
pozac
Saturday, September 04, 2004
LIKE waddaHELL!!!
still cannot... really i think this blog has problems...
it's been awhile... haha everyone's been so good lately...
haha... man... we'll go crazy after our exams!!! haha...man
can't be helped lar... de stress de stress!!! w00t!!! sigh...
ok these few day are damn fun... especially today...i picked
a fight with jit min... then he thought i wanted to whack him...
but actually i went up to him and took the soccer ball from his
long lanky legs... haha.. man i saw him flinch... haven't whacked
ppl up since sec one... haha THANKS GOD... PRAISE HIM!!!
in him i'm born again... everyday's a new day for me... haha...
well... i think cassidy "carebear" soh is one damn hell of a nice
teacher... when he follwed me to collect tennis ball...i ask him...
"sir why the paper so easy" he asked me " isaac you wanna go
acjc right?" so duh lar... "why set prelims so tough for wat...i'm
heloing you guys to get to jc!!!" see!!! teachers like him are damn
cool rockers... haha... oh he asked me somthing bout the big house
behind our school too... but tha's a secret between me, carebear, and jong
i'll end here...
TAKE CARE PEEPS...
ZaC
Posted at 09:46 pm by pozac
pozac
Tuesday, August 31, 2004
Arrrrrrrrrgh...
Currently listening : Week Long Embrace - The Julianna Theory
The canopy above my head is all I see
Another day
Another night I'm lying here
Falling asleep
I sure hope that they do not think I'm lazy
And I hope that they don't think that I'm a slob
I hope that I don't make myself way too much at home
I hope you care when I'm gone
Watch another movie
Play another song
Read another passage in the book
Spend another hour
Of just another day
I hope I don't spend way too much time falling asleep
I sure hope that you always know I'll miss you
And I hope that when you sleep you're looking up
Cause when I rest I think of all those tired times
And I can't sleep when you're gone
Those closed eyes remind me
Of what we have
So please don't open them yet
hey.. been a few days since i blogged.. guess its been fine over the past few days..got a one and a half week extension for my d and t.. kinda relieved
anyway.. had a whole fu****g day of soccer today.. god damn.. maybe i should be studying.. kinda late to regret now.. argh.. just had math tuition.. haha. hope i'll be able to do well..
but don't tell my parents..
corpse.. SHHHHHHHHHHHHH..
haha.. gotta go now anyway..
byer..
Po
Posted at 09:29 pm by pozac
pozac
Sunday, August 29, 2004
FINALLY!!!
THere's really some problem lar... i dunno...
well as long as i can get my entry in... still...
yah... anyway... haha the war has died down again...
ARGH!!! i've got sun burnt.... went to east coast today...
guess wat? as usual lar... got suaned again... for no reason..
actually for some reason... haha llike duh.... i left my shoes
back at east coast... but then PRAISE GOD... my frieds got it
for me and their keeping it... haha... well really... thanks GOd...
and... THANKS BEL too!!! really... ahaha havent gone home with
her for like super long already... well studies lar... haha oh well..
so much for today...yah.... it was really damn damn damn fun..
to take a break from studies lar... haha...
SUNDAY... Prayer rally... haha went with JONG AND AUGGY
haha damn damn damn funny!!!! haha really... but it was freaky too...
go ask them..haha any way... main message...
---------> PRAYER REALLY DOES WONDERS... YOU GOTTA BUILD
UP YOUR MOMENTUM OF PRAYER... IT IS ONLY THROUGH PRAYER
THAT OUR WALK WITH GOD WILL BE CLOSER AND MORE INTIMATE...
WE'VE GOTTA COMMIT THINGS TO HIM... really thanks GOd for opening
my sights... ok i'll end here now... put in an entry another time
ciaos!!!
ZaC
Posted at 10:19 pm by pozac
pozac
Friday, August 27, 2004
i'd like to believe in something more than a dream..
Crapped...
Currently Listening : Solitaire - No Use For A Name
I can pretend for you, that I mean every word said it's true
That I'd probably rather be like a stranger in disguise
And act as if nothing ever..
Died or faded away, got lonelier with age
And time isn't on our side
I'm sorry to take the thoughts that keep you awake
And make it seem like they're overrated
You certainly talk about me more when
I fall down
And when I get up, my time is never enough
Loved in front behind my back hated
I guess it has everything to do with luck
I can defend the truth
but I sound like white noise to my friends
As I raise my glass to you
In a stupor we speak words
That couldn't be more honest
Lies we lived before are fights without a war
I'm dead when it's in your head
I'm starting to think that all the buoys we sink
Are cutting our chances of being saved
I see that the end is all we have to let us know
I'd like to believe in something more than a dream
For when the will to be one has faded
I guess the truth will soon be deceived
My friend that isn't there,
My solitaire.
hey.. its been screwed up these few days.. kinda got scolded by my
parents again and again.. but.. i didn't mind the nights.. haha...
anyway.. i think michael see doesnt hate me that much anymore..
but he still hates me.. just not that much..
haha... anyway.. my parents have been giving him a hard time...
i kinda pity yide for his folio though.. cos he's spent so much time
on it.. and some farknut just stole it all away... im still wondering
how he can still walk around so cheery... but don't think theres
anything he can do about it but wait..
good luck man.
anyway.. feeling kinda crap now cos i cant use my phone.. wish i
didnt have to leave it outside..
ARGGH..!
anyway i gotta run..
have a nice day..............
Po
Posted at 06:39 pm by pozac
pozac
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
STRESSED..
ok..... how crap can things be right? eh po no need to worry....
things will definitely get better... haha after all u're the freestyle
champion of table tennis right? haha come on buddy cheer up!!!
well it isn't good for alot ppl out there too... feel free to put all your complains down..
it'll be a whole lot better... haha.... ah well... prayer the door to throwing all your burdens
to God... if we just commit all we have to him... and just love and have faith in God,
everything we've given up will be returned back and twice the rewards too...
I am still determined to be cheerful and happy, in whatever situation I may be;
for I have also learned from experience that the greater part of our
happiness or misery depends upon our dispositions, and not upon our circumstances.
Aim for success, not perfection. Never give up your right to be wrong,
because then you will lose the ability to learn new things and move forward with your life.
TAKE CARE... God bless!
ZaC
Posted at 10:09 pm by pozac
pozac
Life..
sux..
Currently Listening : Anyone, Anyone - Dashboard Confessionals
: Cute Without The E ( Cut From The Team)
acoustic - Taking Back Sunday
I'm not sure of anyone (anyone)
But I've got plans
I'm not asking for everything
But sure I could use a hand
Get a little anxious sometimes
You'll be gone and I'll be left behind
Get a little nervous sometimes
It'll be my cue and I'll forget my lines
Get a little lost look and some staring from the corner of my eye
Never really mastered disinterest
I can't see how the way that you leave me alone makes us close
I must be out of touch
I won't ask you to give up on the things that seem to keep you gone
But I can be gone too
Feel a little sorry sometimes
You're not here when I am writing
Feels a little awkward sometimes
You won't talk but we're not fighting
You hold on to your secrets and I'm not privy to what is on your mind
And I can't help but feel tired
so tired so tired so tired
Just so you know it hurts
Hey... Whats Up.. everyday.. in every way.. its getting worse and worse...
my deadline is in 2 days... my mum and dad think im a piece of crap.. and vice versa... and all the things that are happening..
When something goes wrong.. everything goes wrong huh..
anyway.. have to do well in my geog and math.. i think i can do much better
in math.. and i'm gonna start listening in cecilia tan's class after the
deadline.. cos shes like.. real cool about us doing d and t in her lesson..
those 1 and a quarter periods were essential..
thank you madam.. haha..
going crazy eh.. think everybody should start listening in narchee peelaes
class too.. i mean... our geog already sucks so bad.. and she's still chasing
us... shes a good teacher la.. even though in her lesson u suddenly feel like
your energy levels are low and u need a nap..
we should try to LISTEN...
anyway.. gonna be an anti socialite in class tomorrow.. well.. i'll talk after class.. haha...
damn.. i'm becoming an i dec.. but hey.. do i get supreme bass skills too?
haha.. oh well... its not that bad actually..
damn.. i just hate my attitude now.. and my parents attitude.
screw it la..
its not helping alright..
argh....................
gotta go now......
bye. plt..
Po(naldhinho?)
Posted at 09:33 pm by pozac
pozac
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
haha ok... today is good... just feel damn worried bout the oral... friends trying to be mean to me but failing at it.. haha oh well... when i got to school today... some ppl came up to me saying the heard the examiners laughing loudly when i went of... so. shurvey.... i dunno man... crap... gtg off to work now... yes yes... bel... this is an order... u've been sleeping too late... and this isn't good... go get some good rest and don't over work!!!!
Posted at 09:34 pm by pozac
pozac
Please...?
Currently Listening : Best Of Deceptions - Dashboard Confessionals
I heard about your trip.
I heard about your souveneirs.
I heard about the cool breeze in the cool nights
And the cool guys
That you spent them with.
I guess I should have heard of them from you
I guess I should have heard of them from you
Don't you see, don't you see,
That the charade is over?
And all the best deceptions
And the clever cover story awards
Go to you.
So kiss me hard cause this'll be the last time that I let you.
You will be back someday,
And this awkward kiss that tells of other people's
lips
Will be of service
to giving you away.
I heard about your regrets.
I heard that you were feeling sorry.
I heard from someone that you wished you could
Set things right between us.
I guess I should have heard of that from you
I guess I should have heard of that from you
So don't you see, don't you see,
That the charade is over?
And all the best deceptions
And the clever cover story awards
Go to you.
So kiss me hard cause this'll be the last time that I let you.
You will be back someday,
And this awkward kiss that screams of other people's
lips
Will be of service
to giving you away.
to giving you away.
I'm waiting for blood
To flow to my fingers
I'll be all right when my hands get warm.
Ignoring the phone,
I'd rather say nothing,
I'd rather you never heard my voice.
You're calling too late,
Too late to be gracious.
And you do not warrant long good-byes.
You're calling too late,
You're calling too late..
Anyway.. its been quite chaotic these few days..
Its kinda crappy la.. stuff bout my parents calling mr see..
and him suddenly laughing and joking when he's talking to me??
wierd.. anyway.. guess ive been feeling kinda down the last few days..
and kinda lonely at night....
but i'm hoping i'll be fine as soon as possible.. i really need to speed up on my d and t project.. its making me nervous.. loads of things in my mind now..
btw isaac can u change the layout back to BLACK...?
anyway.. lets hope its better today.. and i'll be able to concentrate on my work instead of sitting down and thinking..
kinda happy and sad all at once.. i don't really know what to feel right now.. but i guess it'll all be solved one day or the other..
gotta run now..
byer.
Po..
Posted at 09:12 pm by pozac
pozac
